I love my loneliness as it helps me gather strength to deal with people. I am a drifter, and as lonely as that can be, it is also remarkably freeing. I will never define myself in terms of anyone else. I will never feel the pressure of peers or the burden of parental expectation. I can view everyone as pieces of a whole, and focus on the whole, not the pieces. I have learned to observe, far better than most people observe. I am not blinded by the past or motivated by the future. I focus on the present because that is where I am destined to live. I felt this awful obligation to be charming or at least have something to say, and the pressure of having to be charming incapacitates me.
Being a loner doesn't make me lonely, but being lonely can make a loner. People know me, but they don't really know me. I am completely a loner. In my head I want to feel I can be anywhere. There's a sort of recklessness that being a loner allows me.