Hi guys
I am a brazilian woman, single, very well educated. I am an engineer, speak four languages fluently, working as a consultant, making good money, living a decent life with my own apartment ans so on but I must vent out: i feel really unhappy here. Even though I think the word is a wee bit strong, I absolutely HATE being a brazilian. I hate every single thing in this country. I hate brazilians in general, its culture, the weather, the values, the food, the way of living. I don´t see myself as a brazilian, I don´t recognize myself as a brazilian. I dare compare this feeling to a transgender person´s who don´t recognize himself/herself in their own body. It is pathetic and sad. I felt like this most of my life and because of that i traveled a lot.
During these trips, I could sympathize with some countries I´ve been to. Last year, though, I had the opportunity to spend six months in Scotland. I know six months is not enough to understand a whole culture but I never felt so happy and so in my character as I felt when I was in Inverness.
I was there studying and after my visa expired I came back to Brazil. Since then I´m looking for ways to migrate (legally) to Scotland, and, oh my....so frustating...how hard can it be to migrate legally to a country, even when you are qualified enough?
I applied for jobs, never got one single reply. Now I m trying to get a scholarship but they are almost inexistent to brazilian citizens.... I feel so impotent that I am limited because i was unfortunate enough to be born in the wrong shitty country...
Does anyone have any tips? Would I appeal to arranged marriage (lol, just kidding)? I would appreciate any tips regarding the matter..s.ome scottish friends told me to migrate ilegally and then try to legalize my situation while there but I dont have the guts....this kinda of attitude is so brazilian like and it is not my cup of tea.
If anyone would help me giving me tips or hints how to do it (jobs, scholarships, etc..) I would very much appreciate it.
Thanks!!!