Help with a translation...much appreciated

I don't know that I can sustain how many time more. I hide all things deep in my heart. Once time that I met you, I pretend indifferently. Do you know how  I  can cover my heart? Do you listen the beating of my heart? I can't tell it to anyone. My heart still wait for you. i hope that you know it. I love you but I'm not bold to tell you....

I try to translate, my grammar must be not good. I hope that you're happy with the contain,

I said " go"
why you no stand

I said "no wait"
Why you've gone then

The wind took away my words
But the eyes keep tears in my heart
So Why didn't you know
Why didn't you look into my eyes


    Em bảo anh: “Đi đi!”
    Sao anh không ở lại?
    Em bảo anh: “Đừng đợi!”
    Sao anh lại ra đi?
     
    Những lời em trái ngược
    Mắt em lệ đầy vơi
    Tại sao anh tin lời?
    Sao không nhìn đôi mắt?

    а, я сказала: "Уходи"
     
    Да, я сказала: "Уходи", -
    Но почему ты не остался?
    Сказала я: "Прощай, не жди", -
    Но как же ты со мной расстался?
     
    Моим словам наперекор
    Глаза мне застилали слезы.
    Зачем доверился словам?
    Зачем глазам не доверялся?

Thank you:-). This is very much appreciated. Yes, I'm happy but only in part as right now the person who wrote this does not want to talk to me. However, I just need to be sure about the correct translation on this specific part:

Bao lần gặp mặt, những lần đối diện, em tỏ ra hờ hững.

Can this only mean "that once time I have met you, ...."? or could it be translated also differently? Is this phrase in the past tense? Would you explain to me why it is "once time" rather than more times, so I also learn something about Vietnamese, which appears very complicated :-)

Thank you again.

J

Every time we meet ( more than 1 )
Past tense

My goodness, is this a love letter from a girl? If yes, why did you post it in public? If no, I could help you to translate it!

So funny LOL