need help and advice I'm really struggling...
It's a long story so please bear with me... so last june I went on holiday to turkey and met a lovely moroccan guy, didnt get together or anything but once I got home he started messaging me alot, being straight forward about do I like him, I did, he was cute and his messages made me feel good, I saw him getting alot of attention on instagram off girls and him also following and liking photos, it caused is to argue quite abit, he then used to ask me for money about 600 euros to help him get back to Morocco after the season as ended, I didn't of course he sorted it with his manager but he said I dont care for him
Anyway he went back to Morocco in November and i had 2 girls message me sending me screenshots that they also were in relationships with him, him asking them to marry him saying he loved them also and when they asked about me he said i was his ex and he was using me to help him get to Europe. He begged and begged to stay with me blocking the girls and I was stupid I stayed. I loved him and I knew he loves me,he said I was his first love, he would not leave me alone but it was always girls, he didnt like photos any more but I still had a gut feeling something wasnt right.
When I found out about the girls he changed his number but never gave it me so I couldn't see if he was active on WhatsApp I'm guessing, I was just after christmas filling out Visa application with him and it wanted his number so I asked him and he sent it, I saved the number and watched his activity on WhatsApp and he was online every 5 minutes, I waited 8 hours before the anger got too much and I told him, thing is i wasnt angry but it was normal to keep getting this kind of thing from him, the person he was messaging turned out not to be a girl but a scammer to him, he sent me screenshots of the messages but then told me we was finished for good and he would never come back to me.
I'm heart broken, I don't know if it's the habit, the rejection I cant handle, or the fact I know hes talking to more girls, he says hes staying single. We never had closeness kisses etc but I had him in my life for 7 month everyday, hes told me hes free he can message who he wants and it's true but it hurts.
I've told him the girls are just someone he messages young girls with no money who will never go see him, he just makes them and them him feel good from messages. Hes going back to turkey next month to work the season and I have holiday there in march, he says if he sees me speak with any man there, animation team bar man anyone then he will show me what he can do with girls but he says all girls want fun and sex so he will show me.
It all sounds pathetic now I've wrote it down and I should walk away and say good riddance but I cant, I've deleted his Facebook amd instagram and blocked his WhatsApp but after the other night when I told him I would not ignore anyone at the hotel that I also am single and free he said he was blocking me, he sent long message saying he will show me his game then next message was that hes sorry and he loves me good bye then blocked,I keep stalking his social media to see if hes active, I have 2 Instagrams accounts, his instagram and Facebook are open, hes not blocked my Facebook though and that probably so he knows we can still contact if we need to
Please give me some advice, I love the man but I don't know why, I've had a gut feeling all the way through the 7 month, all girls want him, hes so nice but I need to move on and get over him, I know I'm stupid and should not have let it go this far.
Please help!!
Desperate girl